Ugh

I am sick today, and I am bored off my ass. My nose is stuffed up, my mouth feels like a cotton ball is stuck in it, and I keep panting because I can't breathe out of my mouth. I have been at home all day, trying to do some homework that really should get done seeing as how most of it is due Monday. But have I done any? No. And you know what? I don't even care. My brain feels a little fuzzy every time I try to do it. Oh well.

On a brighter note, I have dealt with the Anthony situation. It turned out ok, but he called me earlier to ask if he could keep Rae one more night. I sent her there under the impression that his girlfriend would not be there as she has some weird situation herself with regards to her daughter. Well, tonight she is there, and I don't feel comfortable with that. I have this feeling that Rae is going to freak out when she realizes that his girlfriend is not going home. Mine and Anthony's agreement the other day was that Raeann would not be spending the night there when his girlfriend was there until I have met this girl. I also told him Rae would not be going anywhere with him until he told me his address. That's the thing with him, he thinks that I don't need to know where he lives. He flat out told me it wasn't my business. How the hell is that none of my business? He knows where I live. What would he do if I moved and didn't tell him my address? I tried asking him that but he said it wasn't the same thing. How is that not the same thing? It's exactly the same thing. I swear, he is so stupid sometimes. Then he finally tells me his address, but says he doesn't want me to meet his girlfriend, because, guess what, it's none of my business. I'm sorry, but I don't let my daughter just go off with strangers. Anyway, we agreed that Rae wouldn't spend the night until I have met the girl. And yes, she is a girl, the older Anthony gets, the younger they get. Funny, huh?

Anyway, I just have this feeling something is going to happen. I don't know what, and I can't explain it, but I have been nervous all day. And I'm pissed because Anthony wiggled out of the whole agreement because I am sick and my car can't make the drive to pick her up. He lives an hour and a half away and the reason he wanted to keep Rae again is because he didn't want to make the drive. Well, you know what? Then you shouldn't have moved! He knew how long it was, he knew that it was that far from his work and from Rae, then he shouldn't have moved. Now he wants to work something out to where we meet somewhere. I can barely afford gas to go ten miles per day to work and school. I don't have the money to meet him 45 minutes away twice a week. Plus, him and this girl live in his house that was left to him for only $100 a month. They both make more money than I do, and I don't think it should be up to me to make sure that he picks Raeann up. It's just one more of his ways to get out of shit like he always does. He comes off to other people as this great dad, but he doesn't care about his daughter's feelings. Raeann tries to talk to him, and he just brushes the whole thing off. It really sucks, and I have to deal with it later. Ugh!